Done

Once again I am lost. The writing it out feels like I am saying the same thing over and over again. I've been told if I am unhappy in my situation then I should change it and My reply...how? Point number 1. I HATE MY JOB! Although I shouldn't complain there are many people without work but every morning I talk myself into getting out of bed. Find some sort of way to motivate myself to spend 10 hours (including the drive) doing the same stuff I did the day before and the day before that. 

Point number 2 is crazy the black? I believe people are purposely being obtuse to make life more miserable. For example when I explain something to a client with (a question I can answer) and that client is dissatisfied with my answer. They prefer to speak with my manager because they believe a different outcome will ensue. Now that same dissatisfied client that I am ready to stab with the closest sharp object is no longer the tiradial dissatisfied client they are now the helpless victim and the big bad associate did not give into their demands upon first request. They precede to ask the same questions that were asked of the big bad associate but added sugar on top. However when the manager explains (exactly what the big bad associate explained earlier) suddenly they understand. The point I'm trying to make is this if you don't believe I know the answer to your question then don't ask me. Go straight to the manager first and bypass me altogether it would save us so much time. 

Point number 3 no really is crazy the new black?

I keep waiting for this moment when my life is going to change for the better. When my hardwork will finally pay off, but I feel like I'm treading water. For every step I take forward towards my goals I'm thrown five steps back. In all honesty I want to quit everything. Work, responsibility, intelligence, and sometimes even life. Yet there's something within that says don't count yourself out yet. So for all the no's and the setbacks that I've landed with perfect 10's. I still believe that everything happens for a reason. So the next question I have is haven't I learn enough on this subject already? I think it's time for the next lesson. Then again am I ready for the next lesson? We shall see!

Ta Ta

Tai